I don't need you, I don't need this. Screw yourself and go to sleep.

Sucky standard layout; it shall change soon

First post! :D

Ok, I think I need to start blogging again to actually have a place to put in my own original thoughts. So here it goes; Ear Wax, version 1.0! :D

I shall be faithful to this blog and not disappear :P Well, at least try to.. :-/

I have moved from http://clandestinemoon.livejournal.com , for unknown reasons; even unknown to myself, so don't ask. You can check out the old blog if you wish, but take note, its mostly incoherent stuff for the whole of 2009. Wow. I wonder why *coughAlevelcough*

Anywhoooooo...On to more important thingies!

I would like to announce that my pet Meatball can now stand on her own two hind legs! :D And even walk on even both hind legs for a few seconds! Meatball the amazing hamstaaar!! :DD

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Which makes me think; if I don't have a photo of Meatball standing on both legs, most ppl would think that I'm trying to con them or whatnots. Most ppl wouldn't accept the possibility that I'm just too lazy to upload a decent non-shaky photo of my furry critter. Isn't that very representative of what the world is today?

Sigh- Bad days at work can just pulverize anyone's morale. But I hope it does get better. Really wondering if I should quit, because I know that I'm not worth the shitty job I'm doing now. The pay isn't exactly worth it either....

Or maybe I'm basically just a money-minded freak. But who cares. BLARGH.

Even so; I really do rather meet up w my friends one day this weekend before the NS ppl go book in agains. I wonder if I really can. It's a bother. SIGH.

OK, so things I'm supposed to dooooooo:

1. Get flyers from Fefe at 9am tomolo

2. Go back to SLEEP

3. Buy boss Nokia E63 battery.

4. Go to WORK. [insert appendix here of the TON of stuff to do]

5. Come back and sleep

6. Wednesday night go for THAI FOOD at KOVAN!!! =D YESSAH.

Isn't life supposed to be simple?

This is such an odd feeling. To be honestly honestly honest, I like the job I have now. Working with students and teachers and all that. It's, by nature, supposed to be a very simple job. Except when the supposed sales come in, which is not even in my job description. BLAAAAH. I'm just the advertisement person, doing all the techy techy stuff. I don't like talking on the phone, especially to customers that weren't mine to attend to in the first place. HAIGH. O wells. The itty gritty stuff that's in my job description really add on to the stress, esp the saikang work. Like putting contact cement on the wall to prevent the board from falling down. Or buying my boss' phone battery. BLAH. I feel very tired about it honestly. But the very thought of quitting doesn't really sit well with me also. The feeling of pseudo-attachment and the feeling of that's not what I'm supposed to do is also niggling in my head. So its just like SIGH. WHAT TO DO???

On top of all these stresses and whatnots, there lies the problem of church stuff. Like, people keeping on asking me to go to church. Honestly, with my 3-10pm shift, its really very difficult to wake up earlier than 10am at any day. Wake up earlier than that, and I would have dizzy and fainting spells. Wahoo. I just don't get how come so many people can't understand that, and keep on asking me to go to church. I really do make an effort to try and wake up, but I really just can't ok. Then people keep on giving me guilt trips about it. SIGH. I think its something that is my problem, not the whole world's one. With so many people nagging me about this issue, it makes me feel more like not going to church at all. SIGH. Talk about deterrents. I will resolve this issue faster if less people keep bugging me about it.

I just don't understand why people say that they want to help, then either get distracted halfway, or just digress totally. Worse, fail to reply. If you don't respect me or my problems, you don't need to pretend that you do and try to give half-shod advice. I can take care of it better myself.

I hope that my dear gets better in the morning.